2013-08-04 - 2:00 a.m.
I found a home for the kitten. She (I took her to the vet today and found out that she is a she) will go there Monday. I am devastated. I love her. I am the worst cat rescuer in the world. I must learn to let go. I must learn to let go. I must learn to let go. The woman who is taking the kitten is a good woman. She is good to her cats and will provide a good home. I need to just get over it. I know this sounds like classic hoarder thinking but I know that I give the best home ever to my cats. Cats who live with me are truly the luckiest cats on the planet. So I feel like shit giving this little kitten to somebody else. Especially because this woman does not let her cats outside. EVER. EVER. And I kind of can't stand that. I think living things need sun and air. But. OK. I just can't have another cat. Let it go. She'll be loved in her new home. And I should feel good because I got her off the streets and she won't be having kittens and it's good. I did a good thing. Anyway. I am so glad to be done with work for this week. I am exhausted. I swear I am going to sleep until one o'clock in the afternoon tomorrow. And then I am going to read magazines in the yard for the rest of the day. And then I am going to make stuffed tomatoes and corn on the cob for dinner and I'm going to drink wine and watch a movie and cuddle that kitten for the last time. =( |
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