DELVING BETWEEN THE TOES OF LIFE....I AM TOEJAM


2013-01-17 - 10:34 p.m.

Oh, yes, I dislocated my jaw again. I knew things were a little dicey there in the jaw region...I really did. I had been wearing my bite splint and massaging my joints and everything. I don't know why it didn't occur to me to not eat the cereal, man. Why?

I made Chex Mix for Christmas. Vegetarian Chex Mix made with anchovy free worcestershire. And I had a shit ton of Chex left over and well, I was cleaning to cupboards and thought that having a big bowl of cereal sounded really nice. I had milk and everything! It wasn't even a few bites into the bowl that my jaw snapped. What is it that I do when chewing cereal that makes my jaw do this?? It's bizarre! Anyway. This is not nearly as bad as the time I did it before but I am unable to speak properly and it hurts like a son-of-a-bitch and by the end of the day it hurts even more. Even though I've not been going to work and eating only mooshy food items. I am promising myself that as soon as this heals and I don't speak like Sylvester the cat any longer, I will go to that specialist at U of M that I wanted to go to last time but didn't. I have jaw pain daily. Enough is enough.

So I had a kind of impromtou vacation. I had actually requested TEN DAYS off in a few weeks (which I will no longer be able to do since I just lost two of my most profitable days) because I KNEW I was getting too stressed out and that I needed a break before something broke. I thought it was going to be my sanity not my jaw but I should have known better. Last night I watched "House of the Spirits" which is one of my all time favorite movies. I have not been able to watch it for YEARS because it was never on Netflix or anywhere else I looked for it. So I watched it last night because it was FINALLY available On Demand. It was very strange how watching it immediately transported me back to the time of my life when I watched that movie at least once a month for a long time. It clicked a switch in my brain. Or something. Today I went out and bought some crafty things and came home and was crafty. Like I used to be. I used to be crafty. I used to make really pretty stuff. I used to make things pretty. So I came home and made some jewelry and even started painting a picture. It will never be awesome but getting your creative mind moving is good even if your crafts are sloppy and weird. It's good to know that I have reset points. I need to find some others. House of the Spirits is good to reset my craftiness. I can't remember what is good to reset my writing.

I have so much more to write about right now but I'm kind of sleepy. Like, really sleepy.

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